Every day I’m working on myself and my mind. Every day I’ve been struggling to try to control my emotions and thoughts. Today, I’m just going to let go, breathe and be. Today, I’m going to think about it all. The down, was the end of a relationship with someone I loved deeply. The up, there is now opportunity to meet someone new and different. The down, I have an old dog who I’m struggling to keep alive by trying everything I can to just to get her to eat. The up, she is surviving and I can only be thankful every day that I have had with her and every day I am continuing to have with her. The down, I haven’t had a vacation in 6-7 months. The up, I’m taking a 3.5 week vacation in Spain. The down, hating my job. The up, the opportunity to move on from this position hopefully within a year. The down, not having any hope that things will get better. The up, learning to have hope again by writing, talking, and living.